Curse you Ostermiller. I'm craving that damn Ninja Gaiden game now because of that taste of it you gave me yesterday. You realise your life is now forfeit for what you have done.

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Well, today was different. Lenny and I actually hung out for a while. Without other people and without talking about Role Playing the whole time. It was fun. We had lunch and I found out I don't like Hummas...hommus...hummos...anyway. Yeah, it was pretty good. And after that I hung out with Ostermiller for a while. I got to look throught the new D&D book he got and play some Ninja Gaiden. It reminds me quite strongly of Devil May Cry, which I must say I loved. Anyway that's about all for today. Oh and we got direct TV installed. Now I'm gonna have to get used to watching cartoons at a different time because Cartoon Network, and probobly several other channels, is on east coast time. I got to watch Aqua Teen Hunger Force and it wasn't even midnight. Kinda strange. Anyway. Note to self, hang out with Lenny more, also watch more Aqua Teen Hunger Force.
That's it I think.

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My head hurts.


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My god. Well I think I have come to a very important revelation. Short of Adrienne, and possibly Ostermiller and Neko, I don't think anyone in this group gives a damn at all what I say about anything. I am finding more and more frequently that what I say seems to go totally unnoticed. And I'm pretty sure Adrienne feels she is treated exactly the same way. Although I'm not really sure why I'm bothing posting about it, it won't change a damn thing either. But let me try to get one important thing through to all of my "friends". To all the people who might want to count me in their camp. If you hear nothing I have ever said or ever say again, hear this.

I hold no grudges against you. I hold not pity or spite. No regret and no hatred. And I have accomplished this by doing one simple thing. This thing I tell you to do now.
Step back. Step back from yourselves. Step back from your friends. Step back from your families. Step back and look around. Look around you and all you will see is what you are. Perhaps you will see nothing at all, perhaps you will see everything in the world you wished you ever were. But I doubt it. What you will see is the truth. What you will see is what you really are and you'll have to ask if that is what you really want to be. Do you want to be a reflection of your desire? Of your greed? you grief? Your predjuices? your fears? or do you want to be more? Do you want to be your insecurities? your confidence? do you want to be these things that so many people define themselves by? Or do you just want to be?

I want to be. And that's all I want anymore.

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Yoshi's a Cutey

It has slowly begun to surface in my thoughts that perhaps my friends don't really want me around. I don't know what I may have done, but that's the impression I keep getting. But maybe I'm wrong. don't know. It just seems no one has ever made an effort to get to know me, and no one really seems like they feel it would be a loss not to know me. But maybe I'm wrong...

Rams on a Mountain

Well I'm feeling better finially. I actually managed to get out and get some stuff done today. My stomach and I are back on speaking and eating terms. Plus there's no more vommiting. I work tomorrow, and so does Adrienne, her schedule is crazy. But it's temporary and she gets paid lots, at least we think she does. My dad is coming into town tomorrow. He lives in Virginia so I don't get to see him much. We're having a father's day thing for him Sunday and a little party for my Grandma the same day, for her birthday. It should be kinda fun. Adrienne is going to have dinner at her Dad's on father's day too so I think Adrienne and I are gonna lay around all day so we get some time rogether before we have to go. She's a sweetie. Anyway, I don't think anyone is really interested so I'll just go play big money at Coffee Break Arcade.

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Purple Stuff

Well, yesterday was not a good day for me. I spent most of the day laying on the bathroom floor and I realised just how disgusting it really is. Of course that wasn't really the main focus. The whole feeling like puking all day was why I was there. It really is amazing how much vomit can come out of you. I mean, yeah, the first time I had had dinner from the previous night so that was something but when I woke up at 2 this morning I hadn't had much the whole day and still managed to regurgitate more than the first time. Plus it really seemed like more than I'd had to eat in the past couple of days. ANyway, enough about that. I'm feeling a little better today. I had some rice, hopefully I can get some calories out of that and continue living. I don't reccomend yesterday for anyone. As nice as I always feel after vomiting the feeling didn't last and I just ended up feeling like crap all day, and most of the night. and it'll probobly catch up with me again today.

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The Wheels on the Bus Go Round and Round

So today was the party for Adrienne's cousin for surviving the hell that is Rio. I had to get someone to cover my shift because Chet scheduled me for Saturday my first week and I hadn't had time to tell him about the party and what not. But that's fine, it got covered and we went. The cake wasn't very good and it's always weird being around Adrienne's extended family, but oh well. She deals well with being around my Aunt and Uncle so I can handle her's (Even though her aunt is an insane bitch-whore...er, did I say that?). So yeah. Now we'll get to the stressful part...

So if you'll check Adrienne's blog you'll see that we were suppose to start putting up the firework booth's last night around 10 or 11 ish. Well that didn't happen. Adrienne and I stayed up waiting for this because we're not really night people so it kinda threw off our schedules and we end up not doing it because Brian (Adrienne's Mom's boyfriend) is a complete idiot and didn't want to start yet. Of course Adrienne and I are tired and already up past our bed times, but I took a nap eariler that day so I can't get to sleep and Adrienne isn't feeling so good and she can't get to sleep. Succife to say, we didn't get much sleep. Now, onto the party. So we're there just kinda hanging out and Adrienne's mom get's a call around 1. It's Brian saying he's found Ronnie (a friend of his who is also suppose to working on these booths too) and that Ronnie is on his way over. So we're like, "Ok, we'll be there soon." And we get ready to leave, but we gotta have a cake and whatnot so we get to Adrienne's mom's house around 1:30. And you know what we find there? Brian lighting off a firework underneath RJ's car. Isn't that shit? Yeah, and then as soon as we walk up he starts talking shit at Adrienne's mom for not being there all day and waiting on his fat ass. So we go inside. About 2:15 rolls around and no Ronnie still. Brian say's he's going to go get the firework stand truck. SO we relax and Adrienne's realises that we're in clothes we don't really want to work in. Now it's about 2:30. We walk outside and Brian is just getting his ass moving. No he hasn't changed his clothes or done anything except fart around in the garage. So we go home, get changed get gloves, try to recruit my brother to help and come back. It's about 3:00 when we get back. No Ronnie and no Brian. It's a 15-20 minute drive to go get the truck and no one has any clue where ROnnie is as of yet. So we wait some more, and some more. And then Adriennne's mom get's a call from Ray (the guy really in charge of the whole booth setting up thing) saying shit hasn't gotten done and from now on they're starting at 8 am every day. She tell's Adrienne and me this while we're watching Batman. Then we discuss actors and actresses for a while. Killing time, and 4 o-clock rools around. And still no Brian, no truck and no Ronnie. SO I say fuck this and I'm headed home. Stop by work and find out I work Wednesday at 12. I come home and call Adrienne to telll her I love her and then start this post. 4:20ish, adrienne calls me back to say her mom say Brian driving back towards the house in the truck finially. I assume Ronnie was with him but I didn't even think to ask. So yeah, why does it take almost 2 hours to do a 30-40 minute drive? I am so sick of Brian's crap. We could have relaxed at the party, maybe relaxed at home , but no. He's a lazy piece of crap and can't get his fat ass moving. It shouldn't take 3 hours just to get the team together and get the truck. Especially considering the team consists of 3 people. I'm not part of the team and neither is Adrienne's mom, but we're helping out because we know Brian won't do crap. If it was up to me I'd get Adrienne out of the team and into the warehouse, because she's going to try for a warehouse job after this whole bit is over. I'd get her out of this situation because anything Brian is a part of is generally crappy. Anyway, enough ranting, I have a throbbing headache and my stomach feels bad. I'm gonna lay down for a while and hope Adrienne fares well out there today.

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I had my first day at Subway today. It was different. I made sandwiches and interacted with customers. Kinda creepy. No heavy boxes, no jerk ass boss with no idea what's going on. It was almost...fun. I work agan tomorrow, from 2-4. And the crazy thing is I have Tursday off! Of course I also work Saturday which is unusal for me, but I'm sure I'll get used to it. I get a free sandwich every shift and all the soda I can drink, plus a 10% discount the rest of the time I buy food there. It's crazy, i actually get some benefit out of my job besides money and stress and pain. I may just start to enjoy this job soon.

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Guess what?!? Tomorrow's Monday and I don't have work. I'm not taking the day off, I'm not calling in sick, I just don't have work! Woohoo! Sorry, I'm happy about getting a new job where I won't be working every single, day except major holidays and the days I decide I just can't deal with my bosses crap. I'll actually have days off. Go me! But I do work Tuesday, so oh well. Anyway, on another note, we did stuff this week with Cody and Ostermiller and our other group of friends. And a little with Neko and like 10 mintues with Brian. It was definately different. It's weird when you bring people together from two different groups of your friends. It's like mixing explosives and gasoline, you just gotta hope there's not spark to set them both off because you're standing right next to the point of origin. Ok, so it's a pretty lame analogy, but that's life. Anyway I get beef stew tomorrow and pepper steak on Tuesday so my week is looking up. GO BEEF!

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So I had a very tiring day at work today. They put me back on Blue wall. Damn them to hell. I've decided that my last day will be tomorrow instead of Friday. Now let me explain why. Our pickoff is taking the next two days off. Our best loader took today and is takeing the next two days off, Muhmmad took today and is taking the next two days off, and Sourez is taking Friday off. So that leaves me with unreliable Calvin and Ed. Now Ed's a good guy, but that leaves us with only two people on the wall. Did I mention that the Supervisor is probobly going to call in Friday as well because of the severe lack of people that will be there? Yeah. So tomorrow will be my last day at UPS. Go me. I start at Subway on Monday. Go sandwiches.


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Ok, so it turns out it's not because of the prereq problem. Adrienne doesn't have any other psychology classes and she still got her grade. It stems from a problem earlier in the semester where I got dropped because the teachers TA got trigger happy and just started taking people out of the class, I think. I talked to the teacher and she said she'd fix it and I guess she didn't. Anyway, I emailed the teacher and hopefully it will be resolved soon.


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Ok, now I'm pissed off. Turns out I got a W in my abnormal psych class because as it turns out it now has a prerequisite. It didn't have one last semester, or at least it wasn't in the schedule book when I signed up. And I know it didn't because I was all like "Wow, this would be a great class for my General Ed, and look I can take it without taking any other psychology classes first." I remember this and now this is a load of BS. I'm going to go talk to a counselor. I finished that class with a B and I'll be damned if that's going to waste without me at least getting my money back. That is such total crap. Anyway, I think I'll go talk to someone at the school about that this week, take Thursday off work or something. I can't believe this crap.


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